music: the roots "what you want"

note to self: do not go to the grocery store when you're hungry... if you do, you'll spend $98.86 dollars in food. christ.

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 8:26 pm?

music: john mayer "comfortable"

ugh. so i was working on a good blog, but i killed it, and now its gone. ill just be mad and have this entry instead.

but, i am updating this thing now. tee hee

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 12:48 am?

ha! take that, non-dancing feet! (boy are my ankles hurtin.)

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 12:43 am?

music: jack johnson "flake"

my first two days of work were really fun and crazy. im still getting the hang of it and everything, but as soon as i get the courage to use the tonopen, ill do it (something really bad happened in the office last week that i couldn't explain)... that should be pretty much the extent of training afterwards. btw, if y'all didn't know :-P, i got a job. yes, the rich kid got a job. i work at an opthamologist's office down in newport beach and/or orange, and its really cool (jacki's my co-worker!).

school's been like whatever these past two times... i've been just going through the motions... i really need to get back up into academic shape soon. slacking off these past two weeks won't help me. allz i need to do is just quit reading people's blogs :).

mark c. said something about a new major next year, and i might change into it. its called biomedical engineering: premedical, and it sounds perfect for me. i calculated it, and it seems like i have to go for 5 classes per quater for the next year. its gonna be hella isoogashi.

btw, i made co-director for puso. :-P

yep. co-director. the feeling is still sinking in, and im feeling scared, anxious, happy, excited, melancholic, and everything else in between. funny how things turn out. i was proclaiming myself to be co-outreach and still kinda had some feelings for co-director before the elections, but when i saw that there were only 3 positions running for co-director, i felt really bad and it seemed like i was letting the club down, so (i guess) i was like, "alright, fine." (haha) and stepped up to do it. i mean, i don't know that ill be able to succeed to be co-director, but this will be an interesting time for me.

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 11:00 pm?

music: sade "by your side (neptunes rmx)" | n'sync "i drive myself crazy"

i finally got to see spiderman... i swear, other than ryan, i was pretty much the only other person to see spiderman... on the same note, i finally saw lord of the rings for the first time last week :P. but yea... spider man was okay, i just still don't understand what the commotion was all about (except for the rain scene... tee hee (jk)!). i could just say that it was "entertaining". granted, the action scenes were really good and everything, but sometimes it got a little corny or a little too flat.

yesterday was really exciting... i was even more excited to go to hang out w/ pch this time around. before then we had board pics... we were all wearing the same shirts and invaded westminster mall to get our pics taken... they were like glamour shots, so our faces were hella white and everything... i thought that was kinda cool... and also a really good bonding moment for puso board. i've been through so much with these guys that i know it will be hard to let go once school ends... so i took that time in westminster and relished it for all its worth. after that we drove up to one of the director's apt (the new "captain e.o.") to hang out... 30 people in an apt about half the size of ours was just craaazy. we just hung out, ate, sang, introduced each other, and just hung out. i was kinda saddened that a lot of the people wanted to leave right after introductions - they were about to go bowling too! bleh. i really wanted to stay there. its awesome how both of our boards just clicked... not like us and kaba (grr!). i mean, i really wouldn't mind staying there overnight to chillax w/ them :), even if i did have a midterm today (don't worry, i studied since sunday). i miss a lot of them already (some more than others! jk). i guess we'll just see them during the end of the year banquets and stuff... or maybe if i "run into" them. hehe.

so tomorrow is my trip w/ the family to vegas. its gonna be fun, but at the same time i don't know if should even go because i still have hella fun day stuff to do. im torn, but its mother's day.

oh, and also, i scored big. i got star wars tix (advance tickets) from the box office for thursday @ 11:00. hooorah!

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 3:14 am?

music: hieroglyphics "cab fare"

i was freakin out yesterday cause when i came in to get trained for my job, there wasn't anyone at the opthamologist's office... i don't know what to do now cause this certainly is gonna leave a bad first impression.

currently i don't know what to do right now. i feel really clueless... these past weeks seemed like one really really long and neverending day.

i told a friend about my LA "gallavanting" and she said i would keep her updated as long as she keeps me updated with her fling w/ one of her interests... as the days go by... im beginning to think less about it... and it makes me wonder if it is real. i'd sure like it to be, i mean, cause if it were, it would be my first ever relationship... it would be nice to have a girl friend at least before 40! its just me and my bad luck w/ girls.

i told one of my buddies that i wasn't even intending to do kababayan board and he said i was a traitor. haha. traitor to kaba? naw... just turned off with this year. im really looking forward to next year cause nic's gonna be president... and fusion (filipinos uniting student-engineers in an organized network - finally got the acronym right) will officially be in alyansa... so we'll definitely have a power balance in alyansa. all the shit that they did to us by screwing us over was kinda shady and that really hurt our relationship w/ them... we'll just have to wait and see till next year.

i took an online exam like a month ago (personality disorder test) and they had me as a having "very high schiztotypal" personality. that's fine... its just an online test. honestly, i think i was schitzophrenic when i was really young... but i don't know if you can "get rid" of this thing... a lot of the symptoms associated w/ it have died down considerably nowadays... although they are still there... the random noises... stuff like that. the reason why im talking about this now is that when i was studying w/ sol and friend, we told her my results... what sucks now is that every time i see her and her roommate, they go "there goes that schitzo"... bah. yea. im told i could be schitzo, but my friend going around yelling around campus (and laughing) in front of my face... labeling me as schitzo nowadays... hurts.

on another note... today was the first time in like 3 weeks where i came back to my apt. before 12:00 during a weekday. but at the same time... even if it seems busy, it feels im exerting more energy than i did the past 3 quarters. i think it was cause when i attended the med school panel for puso, i got scared outta my ass cause of all those minimum GPA score reqs. for med school. so far... im kicking ass... i just hope that my listening/reading/kanji japanese midterm tomorrow will show this... so, off to sleep then wake @ 5:30 to study!

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 10:58 pm?

music: something corporate "if u c jordan"

link: you are.swf

i've spent nearly 30 minutes just staring at the new entry window thinking about what to say... but im drawing blanks. i guess ill go to sleep.

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 1:56 am?

http://www.yonkis.ya.com/video2/chin2.mpeg

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why'd i write this at 3:10 am?

music: miles davis "when i fall in love"

so right now im just reading blogs and just wasting time away because studying just plain sucks. just wished humans had an innate ability to osmose everything (maybe not everything) into their head. im looking at stuff on my desk: im staring at that Gray's Anatomy book and its collecting dust... hehe so much for the diligent pre-med student :). im also looking at the pcn programme... id have to say that i was really impressed w/ this year's pcn... even if that was like my 5th pcn watching. everything was good except western christian... jan (my bro's g/f and last year's pcn coord) said that the WC suite wasn't so great either (except tinikling). a bit disorganised... unclean. i knew it was gonna be like that after my 3rd week practice... that's why i left. however, the surprise of the night was kabaModern and kabaModern Legacy 10. i thought KM was gonna do their routine from HSO (which i thought was really unexciting... hehe) but they pulled out a totally new routine and i was very impressed. oh... the PCH medical outreach benefit programme is also on my desk. that was such a great event that they planned. i figured that if i was unable to go to our mm gala in the beginning of the year i should go to PCH's at least. They did a really good job for their first benefit dinner... and i did meet some really good people. kinda breaks my whole stereotype of bruins being all stuck-up and that "look at me, im a bruin" attitude. i love the pch guys... they're great. oh... the last thing on my table worth mentioning... a park, picnic area & field reservation request form... we finally got a park for the hella fun day... im starting to stress out cause we don't have a prize and hella fun day is coming up and whatever whatever (damnit nic).

so thursday is the kick-it night w/ pch and the day after is my japanese reading/writing midterm... i figure if i study now, i wouldn't need to study as much when thursday rolls by... that way i can totally kick it and "mingle" (hehe). its just that the studying part isn't happenin.

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 11:07 am?

music: desaparecidos "mall of america" and for a random twist: mousse T "i'm so horny"

wow im really surprized that after starting to re-write on this blog thing im getting hella visitors... i get an all time high (no, not that high) every day... today i got a WHOPPING 36 hits... then again, everyone that visited this site was actually looking for the buckwheat boys "peanut butter jelly" song. so... to get more hits, ill write the name buckwheat boys "peanut butter jelly" again :).

call me a blind fool .

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 2:27 am?

music: phantom planet "please apply yourself to me sweetly" (its going on in my head b/c the iMacs on campus don't have sound)

right now im on one of the computers in CSL and i figured that i should add an entry here... i thought my meeting was at 4:00, but that was my class (haha) - my meeting is actually at 6. also, this was the first time i checked out how my blog looks like in a mac environment (IE 5.5) and it looks really crappy. i figure its my sucky coding skills. ill fix it w/ a new design or something later... but that's gonna be later.

so i skipped today's classes just so i can work on the TAPS webpage... it looks good so far, but im continuously asking myself how my design even pertains to the content. ah well... they'll have to live with it (hah!). Yesterday was nominations for puso board... and i was quite surprised that i would be nominated for director, secretary, public relations, and outreach... personally, i really want to do outreach, but at the same time, i also want to reach and go for the director position. but idk... it all depends on whether or not i feel ready (which of course, will not feel absolutely ready for anything).

I also got the job for the optometry position. im just a little worried because they demand having a certain amount of hours from you per week, and i don't know if the schedule i have might even work with their hours... in fact, not only am i kinda ecstatic that i have a job, im also really scared at what will hapen. same with hella fun day. im really scared that this won't go through... but at the same time, im excited that this is technically the first big event i am heading... ever.

my past journal entry about me and feeling sad for not being sp was kinda... sad. now, i think i am over it (again) and think i was acting babyish over that thing... i think i was too stubborn for thinking like that. ill thiink about more stuff to say later on.

by the way... **free baskin robbins from 6-10 tonight (at selected stores)!!!!**

~ja matte!

P.S.: if people looove me... someone get me an Apple TiBook w/ 1GB ram... you know... the one that costs like $3000... then again, love isn't measured w/ money ;o)

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why'd i write this at 5:26 pm?

music: phantom planet "in our darkest hour"

i think we experience everything for the first time in college.

we had this free concert w/ something corporate/unwritten law... and i went. i wasn't expecting to actually be in the front, but as the day progressed, i was up there... and actually moshing... with slippers on! part-idiocy, part-fun... i broke my left toenail in the process... but the whole moshing thing was possibly one of the craziest and funnest things i have ever done.

last week was interesting... the puso peeps thought i had a "date" (which i thought definitely wouldn't be) w/ someone from sierra and the sierran peeps thought i had a "study date" (which is outrageous) from one of the puso peeps. yea, i felt mack-daddy then, but still... i had a lot of explaning to do.

after so many years, i think im beginning to get out of my shell.

random purchase of the week: while i was w/ solomon and hoony to get somethign for solomon's sister's communion gift, we went to borders and i got myself Gray's Anatomy. yup. that's right... a 1200 page anatomy book. i figure if i start reading like about 3 or 4 pages per day, i would finish it by the time i get into med school... btw, those med school acceptance stats scared me so much that im really kicking myself into high gear again. i basically need a 3.5 or better cumulative GPA to even get considered into med school... i think that's just insane.

Hella Fun Day is beginning to be a daunting task... not that im up to it or that im lagging, its just that... actually, i am lagging. we really need to find a location asap!

i've given up hope for my bonsai plant. it'll dry in slow death... i think i gave it too much sunlight :(

~ja matte!

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why'd i write this at 1:51 am?