January 26, 2002 - if only i had monkeyman stylez...
music: goldfinger "superman"
aaah... the apartment is back into sanity... its clean! at least i cleaned up my pile of clothes on my bed :)
well, yesterday was fun. we did some night bowling and i was surprised that we were there till closing... we did some funny isht too... solomon turned into monkeyman cause his bowling style looked like he was a monkey... he got a freaking 134... ryan did some sexylicious poses right after he bowled one... little did we know that ryan knew how to bowl since junior high... grr. no wonder he got over 150... i did okay... got w/in my average... 128. yeah, so what if i was the lowest scoring one the whole night, i still won the last one, no matter who says what. :) but the fun part was when we were just goofing off and just yelling at the person bowling his frame... hehe that was fun. after that we had some alberto's, and then we crashed.
today i slept till 1:30... subconsciously avoiding answering all calls. but right after, i got to cleaning... did the clothes... washing clothes, threw all the newspapers away, and cleaned those dishes... w/ a dishwasher, of course. muhahah i rocked those dishes.
my bowling shoes were a little tight on the toes... and my pinky-toe's nail wasn't cut for a while, so whenever i bowled, it scraped into my ring-finger-toe's skin... and it's just damn annoying. don't laugh. im in pain, damnit!
ugh, but yeah, when i said that i could just turn off my "bad mood" behavior, it was more difficult as it seemed. fortunately, the bowling thing helped me a lot.
but yeah, on another tanget, my sympathies go out to one of my friends that is going through a tough time... i wouldn't mind taking care of everything next week. s/he knows who s/he his... s/he's one of the 10 (woo hoo!) that read my journal....
haha ok yeah, so otherwise, im in a better mood than i was back then.
~ja matte!
January 25, 2002 - zotbowl preppin'
music: notorious b.i.g. "no money, no problems"
zentences
yep. my chem midterm is finally over... i had the feeling of studying "too much" for that thing... after seeing how simple that midterm was, i kinda wished i did go to tahoe... but its all good... i hope i get a good grade. enough so i can become an RA next year :-/... ah well. so today i saw rich & lew (spop1) and they were working the LTD booth cause they're rushing... its kinda hardcore that whenever they see an active they have to make a line, rush the active, then shake and greet the guy. pssh whatever. kinda funny time too cause at about the same time i saw someone from sigep walking by and he just ignored my presence... he probably thought that i was rushing LTD... hehe.
speaking of fraternities, i think im becoming anti about them... bitter? yea, maybe... but would i be in one again? not right now. maybe later. who knows.
well, when i was done w/ my midterm hoony and i actually did the 103 deal of just hanging out in front of HIB and sitting. we got jesse to come and sit down and chill, so that was cool... passing down the tradition :o) hoony and i were talking about next year... how and where we should be getting apartments. im still gonna miss the lakes... brought in sooo many memories... like that one guy that keeps yelling out the balcony at random times of the night, or the funky elevator opening at the sight of me :). yeah. its been fun... but for sure we're gonna have another party before we go... its gonna be called "evicted at the lakes"... hehe.
so there's hella stuff going on, like kris' b'day, mark's b'day, solomon's gonna go out to the movies, and buncha other stuff... but i kinda feel like going home... sleeping after a really really tiring (and fast) week.
but i just got word from solomon that he's going bowling, and that sounds much better, so i changed my mind and am going out!!! wooo hooo!!
~ja matte!
January 24, 2002 - pizza/cinnistix lovin'
music: ben folds five "brick" + moby "porcelain"
okay so im starting to get out of this "bad mood" thing... it sucks, so id rather not be in this "bad mood" thing and start being myself, i guess.
so yesterday i was planning to take another nap so i could refresh my mind so i could write up my post/pre-lab better... but i still have that weird feeling where i just cant wake up anymore... usually im pretty good w/ waking myself up, but this time when i woke up from the couch, it was 5:30 AM... so i decided to not go to class (soc62) so i could try to finish the lab... quite frantically. i decided it wouldn't finish on time, so i went to ngoc's place for some help... turns out she only had her labs for 1C and not 1B... so that sucked ass. but what didn't suck ass was that when i was there, the pizza man came so i mooched off some pizza from them :) so after cv, i said f*** it and went to class (fortunately he didn't check pre-labs at the door) and started to copy. I hate copying people's homework... it just doesn't feel right at all, but i did it anyway. so yeah, there's a girl that's in our lab... she's really really cute, but i won't do anything cause i don't need them DAMNIT! self-torture? no. i call it "don't-talk-to-that-girl-cause-you'll-get-in-a-relationship-and-if-you-do-ill-kick-myself-in-the-ass". well... yeah. but she's really cute. not HOT, but cute. like girl next door cute. but i do like incentives to going to class. :)
right now im on my way to go to the kabaMODERN tryouts and then its study-study-study for the chem midterm :-/ i think ill do okay. im on track, at least.
~ja matte!
January 23, 2002 - goal of the quarter #1
Ito ang mga tanong na nais naming malinawan sa praymer na ito. Inaasahang magagamit ito sa mga grupong talakayan, pahayagan, polyeto at iba pang uri ng propaganda kaugnay ng isyu ng langis. Paramihin ito, ipamigay at talakayin sa lahat ng puwedeng abutin.
~ja matte!
January 23, 2002 - no more sigep drama
music: mos def "ms. fat booty"
creepy things happening in the apartment... today would be the fifth time this year that the elevator doors opened for me even before i pushed the call button... and it would be the second time our normally blue looking toilet water looked pale red... odd.
these past two days ive been really really sleepy. i missed today's taps meeting cause of my sleepiness...
doing online homework is a bitch. i got many questions wrong cause i inputted the wrong thing... like putting in "three" instead of 3. sucks major ass. (how does it suck major ass? wow. like a hickey - kinda - for the ass) yea but its cool... i got 8 of 10 poss. points.
its terribly hard to create a "routine" with this schedule... with routine, i mean like being able to do the same things each day of the week... stuff just keeps getting thrown in all over the place. but in the end i just keep sleeping through those appointments :(
the cross cultural center retreat has been cancelled... ah well... no worries... ill go to the next one.
oh, and yesterday i found out that i have been oficially expelled from SigEp. i know... its mean, but in my mind im doing a mini-woohoo! thing for the past couple of hours. don't consider me a fraternity boy anymore, cause im out of that isht. why'd i join it in the first place (if you're asking)? well... lets just say that it was a big influence from one of my family members and plus the fact that i was just a freshman kid trying to join everything in one year. in the end, i hated it.
what else... its odd... im starting to see the bad things in life... even if i always consider myself an optimistic person... just weird... hehe... oh shit! i just remembered i got rural/maria clara practice in 8 minutes... so ill finish this later.
~ja matte!
January 22, 2002 - how sad... so sad.
music: swollen members "fuel injected" (it has one of the kabamodern beats in there); they're CANADIAN! woo hoo!
im getting the sense of being pushed around this week... but this time i really don't care. i don't care cause nowadays i have other things on my mind, like studying... midterms are already starting for me :(... so the social aspect of my life is way down... sometimes i really don't care what goes around or who tells me to do what, just as long as i get some studying done. yeah its crap, but blah.
ryan brought in an xbox, but forgot to bring his only game, so that's like the biggest tease in the living room... at least there's a 300 dollar clock/calendar/cd-ripper in our living room.
overall, this week im just feeling really sad. idk why, but ive been around by myself a lot, and when im around by myself, i think to myself, and when i think to myself, lots of bad and negative things pop up, like self criticism - which is good, but also bad - and lonliness...
as much as i would like to be abstinate until i marry, i would at least have a g/f sooner or later. i think that's the biggest frustration right now: i never felt anything like having a g/f before, and its very depressing.
no matter. i need to get some work done anyway... need to bust my butt if i want to become a staffer again... im feeling very anti-social nowadays, but that's okay, cause im gonna get good grades this quarter.
but, on a lighter note, im glad that i have friends and roomates that are around so i can talk to them. if i didn't have any or if i were to live alone here, i would literally go crazy. it made me good to think that some of my friends could actually confide secrets w/ me and that they trust me and everything. so yeah, my friends and family is the only thing keeping me up.
sorry if this was a little moody or that after reading this it made you a little sad, but i needed to get some of that getting out of my chest.
~ja matte!
