February 01, 2002 - netcam :)
music: utada hikaru "first love"
googlewhack: planarian grammy
hehe so i got myself a webcam... neat stuff, it also has a mic, so that's hella cool. just playing around w/ it and i think its more of a high tech toy than anything else :) woo hoo.
so the lady i met up with didn't give me too much of a hassle. she was cool. she seemed like a grad student or something, but yeah our meeting was short and sweet. i just need to give the adjustor her digits.
on other things... things are getting a little tense. its in a couple of days and freak... we still don't have a massage therapist/orthopaedist... in part of my fault cause damn... those weeks really went by really fast.
we sent in our spop apps, and that was cool... its interesting that there are soo many people trying out for spop this year... i was glad when i saw tons of my spopers applying for the program :) after that hoony and i decided to go leave right after my classes... but we took the bad move of meeting @ sierra. well, in the middle ryan came along and then we decided to eat w/ the sierrans... saw earl and ate @ the commons, which was also hella cool.
gawd. these cornrows are hella tight. both tight as in dope and tight as in "ouch, my scalp!" but yeah... after having these, people are first glancing at me differently... there are more and more girls looking straight at me and smiling... either its the hair or its just me a w/ a little more confidence/self-esteem (me with self-esteem? naw!!!) and i also noticed that when i was sitting in lectures, no one was sitting near me... maybe its my thuggish looks (lol). yeah its the thuggish looks.
ive done some self-evaluating/self-thinking, and i realized that many times i try to impress people by trying to show them self-pity. ick. yeah its pathetic. horrible, even. but whenever im with certain girls (that i do like... i won't tell you who), i try to make myself look pitiful in their eyes. yuck. its subconscious, and i want to act differently, but i just don't know how. i want the other person to care for me and everything... but that's not the way to go... if that, then it makes me look pathetic and thus nothing will ever happen.
vincebreast or breast sounds like a good name for me... getting used to it :)
~ja matte!
January 30, 2002 - whoops!
**BOOM**
okay. stay calm... don't worry about it.
good. the person's not there... ill leave a note.
alright cool. left my digits, dropped off dale, went home.
nice... called insurance company, filed a claim, peace.
everything seems like its going my way, until i remember that i wrote down "its all my fault" in the note. awwwwfuck! doh!
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music: hoobastank "crawling in the dark"
googlewhack: acetaminophen grubber
so im kinda waiting for the other party's call. kinda nervewracking... but it seems like everything is going fine... i just hope that they overlook that damn "its all my fault" part. stupid me. i shouldn't have anything to worry about... everything is fine. that won't get me down. im on an ultimate happy high anyway :)
so tomorrow im gonna have that hair up there cornrowed... so im excited about that... otherwords... im cool.
~ja matte!
January 29, 2002 - AE: commons night
music:
Top Gun soundtrack "Danger Zone" (not sure what the real title is...) + ben folds five "army"
googlewhack: "pasteurized purple wallabies" too bad im not good enough to do it w/ two words.
i finally put some assertiveness to use... i was looking for a massage therapist at student health, but the recptionist said that he wasn't there... usually i would say "ok! ttyl!", but this time, i got persistent and buggy. i finally got to talk to the radiologist inside that told me to go to another receptionist to get the name of the orthopedist so i could get an extension so i can call and leave a message. yeah... i got that extension... then called the operator to get the orthopedist's extension... funny thing was that when i called the extension, i got back to the radiologist. it went full circle. and since it looked like the radiologist was really busy, i said "ok! ttyl!". haha so i didn't get to talk to the massage therapist (orthopedist) so i was assertive, but failed miserably in my experiment. that's coo though.
puso general meeting AE was the coolest thing ever. we went to a field trip to the mesa commons to eat! woo hoo! i used SP daniel's card and then we all ate as if we lived in a residence hall... hehe puso should be its own hall :)
i felt kinda good that sierra was feeling my recent lack of presence. i ran into meryll (sorry if i spelled it wrong) and she asked me how come i wasn't visitng the hall often... kinda feels good that they kinda like it that im there :) so after commons i chilled in sierra until they had sierra class...
~ja matte!
January 29, 2002 - googlewhacking
music: reel big fish "sell out"
googlewhack: "faux diskette bleep"
doing nothing in particular is fun... well actually all day long i was just checking out people's blogs and stuff... i guess i can say that blog surfing's my new form of crack. before it was counterstrike, now its freaking blogs.
and there's another cool thing i found out about the world of weblogs... meme's and googlewhacks. meme's... they're like those little things that are repeated in other people's weblogs... like... if i were a computer virus, i would be a polymorphic virus . those kinds of deals... and googlewhacking... that's fun. what you do is u use google to search for something with only one entry returned. my my first ever successful googlewhacking: "faux diskette bleep". odd huh.
~ja matte!
January 29, 2002 - "Thank My Restaurant!"
music: eric clapton "change the world"
You can tell who your real friends are when they sense something wrong with you and take you out (their treat) to some phô. no, not cause its a free dinner, cause they have a genuine care for you. that's what happened last night... i was telling one of my friends i wasn't feeling too good, and she took me to a phô restaurant cause she said that when she felt bad, that made her feel a lot better. sure enough, it worked for me. i think that's the single bestest thing someone has done for me, ever. yeah, its small, but it really means a lot to me.
then later on i had a dream about the whole thing happening again (!) and then i dreamt someone other than amy was putting cornrows on me and it looked disgusting.
~ja matte!
January 28, 2002 - linkified
January 28, 2002 - squishy wet carpet isn't fun
music: jordan knight "give it to you"
apartment life just has to be sooo complicated, huh... we got some sort of leak in our kitchen... and we're thinking its two possibilites: 1. the stupid guy upstairs seems to be taking a bath in his kitchen (yeah, its an odd possiblity, but viable) and 2. this is my reason, but i think our gas heater is leaking... water? ewan ko.
that means ill probably have to talk to someone outside the apartment. damnit!
~ja matte!
January 27, 2002 - a big sack of nothings
music: john coltrane "giant steps"
all day long i did a big sack-full of nothing. oh yes, you can have a sack-full of nothing. like, when you have everything planned for the day, and then you do nothing in the end. that's what happened all weekend. well... i guess its all good. today i just had one gripe today. when people plan to do stuff, and then decide not to do it, then they should at least say that they can't do it. ah well.
well... my sack-full of nothings included me sleeping, watching a scoreless soccer game, cooking spam, sleeping, playing video games, sleeping, and then board meeting. i sooo should have spent that time studying... but it just never happened.
so i have a bio96 midterm to study for... and im here typing this... stalling. yea.
oh and i have a new desktop thing... it looks sweet.
also... all weekend long i was just looking at other people's blogs... and there was one that stood out... http://www.madpimp.com/grey. take a look at it... its neat-o.
~ja matte!
